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Trough [Jan. 6th, 2010|11:01 pm]
R. Escobedo
[Current Location |Canada, Hamilton]
[Current Mood |blahbummed]

Things have definitely turned out differently; I"m feeling a bit down and my inspiration is down also.  I feel like I've neglected the awesome/crazy side of me for an incredibly long time.  I knew this was a marathon but it's definitely a different deal when you're in the middle of it and you stumble during a stride.

So I have to write this test that I've put off for so long.  I hope things work out this time.  But I had to decline a wicked contract working for the olympics exactly how I wanted to. 

This is why I'm down.

I think it also goes against my nature: I do excellent things for medium periods of time and take breaks and rotate around: here, I've done the same thing wallowing in mediocrity for almost three years.  I need excellence and inspiration.  

I also feel like I'm being held back.

Well, at least I have a heater in my room now.  Thanks Dave!
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(no subject) [Oct. 9th, 2009|02:30 am]
R. Escobedo
It's been a while and I should write here, but what I'm feeling shouldn't be written.

Honestly.  Vancouver?  10 Months?  Seriously?
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(no subject) [Feb. 3rd, 2009|11:54 am]
R. Escobedo
So due to my grandfather passing away I am so far behind that it is incredibly hard to catch up.  I'm taking some extra days that I hope will not be a problem to account for them but jeeze . . . .. especially since it's memorizing drug names which to my "concepts" brain is SOOOO hard.  Ugh.

Made some delicious sauteed mushroom and turkey breast eggs this morning.  Fantastic.  That's totally a test-day meal.

In other news I'm having some money issues - due to the car crashes that have ocurred (ALL while my car was stationary!) and the super high cost of books for third semester (I think they got close to $800 for the one semester) I'm going to run out of cash sometime in March.  But at least rent is paid here in my little shack until then.
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(no subject) [Feb. 3rd, 2009|11:35 am]
R. Escobedo
I think I've balanced the ability to study and keeping myself awake by intermixing some video games in.  Crazy.
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(no subject) [Sep. 29th, 2008|05:57 pm]
R. Escobedo
Ok so here's how it's gonna go down

Obama wins in 2008 with what is slowly seeming to be a joke from the other party.

Obama gets in office and sees he's WAAAAaaaay over his head with the crap that Bush left by doing nothing but screwing things up for 8 years.  think about it - how much damage can one brainless person do in a day as commander in chief?  Well, this guy was there for almost 3000 of those days.

Then Obama'll wish Hillary won, but try really really hard.  Without success, the US still has major problems.

With that, the republicans point to his failures and get reelcted in 2013, to continue the cycle of mediocraty and lack of leadership that the largest, wealthiest nation in the world should have.

Why should you care?  It affects the world 100% who's the big dog.  We're in for some dark times ahead. 

The only cure, at any leve?: Time to work harder.
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(no subject) [Jul. 26th, 2008|02:31 am]
R. Escobedo
I had a dream two nights ago about Randy Pausch.


Rest in peace, my hero and mentor.  He died this morning.
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(no subject) [Jul. 22nd, 2008|12:50 am]
R. Escobedo
Why is it that this is the most screwed-up schedule ever?  Seriously.  It's all over the place.  Did someone see this before they printed it?  Wow.

In other news, it's nice to get randomly asked for your number.  mm-hm!
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(no subject) [Jul. 12th, 2008|12:50 am]
R. Escobedo
How would you feel if you found out a friend of yours had an abortion without ever telling you?
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(no subject) [Jun. 29th, 2008|01:56 am]
R. Escobedo
I find it really interesting when I'm reading things with regards to medical ethics in this day and age (and I'm considering doing a mini-stint in toronto at the medical ethics centre at UofT) but most interesting of all is the hippocratic oath.  There's so many people at school that are whining and complaining and some didn't even say the oath when it came up during the ceremony at the beginning of the year.  Which I feel is wrong.


This is really interesting in that the guy who wrote at the bottom is actually right on with what I'm feeling, and the interesting thing is that he has the exact same initials in his name as me, which freaked me out a little bit.  It's a little uncanny when you see someone in the world, in the past, explain things exactly how you feel them and also have that weird, superficial connection.  Makes me feel I'm not that far off.

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Thanks for listening [Jun. 21st, 2008|11:49 pm]
R. Escobedo
[Current Mood |hopefulhopeful]
[Current Music |Fight Test - The Flaming Lips]

Well, after many setbacks including messed up things in the Mexican administration system, giving up more than my fair share to the Medical School Gods including what young Ms Hawke went through, and the messy Immuno exam from hell, I slightly questioned if there were any positive sings of me risking and giving everything just to be out here in Guad. 

Apparently someone was listening.

Not only do I now have internet access since a neighbour moved in, which gives me unparalleled access to learning (and canadian TV! CBC for goodness sake!!  And more blog updates now!!), but the washing machine I ordered arrived and am now able to have clean clothes without me standing over a machine design from the 30's for two hours and then have my clothesline break while I dry. 

Listen to what I'm complaining about!; these are truly trying times.

And then, out of the blue, a sign.  I had three neighbours come in because the young lady from apt. 4, and she said she went to a hospital but it took too long to treat, and she saw me wearing whites and assumed I was a doctor (or at least a medical school) and came down to see if I would at least help her out by taking her pressure.  So I made it clear that I was a med student but would do everything I could.  Everything looked totally normal (and I won't get into details for protection) but eventually I told her she should go to the hospital anyways with the diagnostic physical I wrote down for her because it was above what I could do - but definitely needed attention. 

They thanked me as almost all Mexican people do - with sincere thanks that, even if I didn't do anything, I did what I could and they were very thankful for that.

And I, for the first time in my career, thanked my University for at least providing the "you gotta teach yourself" method, because I could rely on myself.  This program doesn't do you any favours, but in the end, if you survive, you can do anything since you have to mostly teach yourself.  Mostly.  Until I get in the hospitals, that is.  That's apparently where all the amazing events happen.  Until then, I'm thankful I could at least provide minimal comfort and info to people that live near me.

It's a great time to be me, and I sometimes forget to enjoy it.
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